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Salam Alaik

I really hope i can sleep after write this post

having difficulty to sleep yesterday is really annoying

pusingla arah mana pon, mata tetap degil

segar ja rasa

tp hati dan keinginan tetap NAK tdo

tapi...

KENAPA KEINGINAN TIDAK DIPEROLEH??

SEDANGKAN HATI BERIYA MAHUKANNYA?

kenapa quya taley tdo jgk?? when i really HOPE i could have very deep sleep with enuf rest utk hadapi hari ini?? Walaupun hanya MID SEM EXAM..

[mgkn ada org yg pandang rendah pada markah exam nih, tp, as for me 40 MARKS are preciously counted marks!!..kurang satu markah boleh tentukan samada lulus atau gagal suatu exam]

MID SEM EXAM...

MCQ...alhamdulillah, i know i answered all the questions. Tak tinggal apa2 langsung...i believed everybody answered all the qs ryte? Objectives qs ja pon...haha :P I really hope i scored this paper.

MOCK OSCE EXAM...

Subhanallah............pertama kali dalam hidup, diriku terasa terlalu takut yg gila2 tiba utk exam nih..padahal mock exam je pon..tremors, tachy, high BP, HR mmg of course increase, tapak tangan severe sudden hyperhydrosis daaaa~~~ sejuk semacam satu badan...ada 3 station, stp station, 8 minit. Namaku naik sebagai org pertama utk masuk exam. Wawawawa....kisah di setiap station tuh....tak sanggup nk cite..~~

AFTER EXAM

I've planned few things to do after this exam. Tapi, setakat minit ini...almost all i need to cancel them. Remuk sangat rasa hati. Hmmm....sedih...when i really desperately want something, usually i wont get them straightly. I really want a pleasant 'holiday' before starting the new round in Neprology and Urology Department. Repeated, pleasent..not rushing, not in havoc environment. Taktau nk express mcm mne da. Tak terkata je rasa.

Tapelah...berfikiran positif!! Alhamdulillah quya da merancang, tapi yg berkuasa Menentukan pergi atau tidak, Allah SWT. Pasti ada hikmah disebalik yang terjadi. Quya yakin pada hakikat ini. Terima kasih pada yang turut sama merancang, and sori jgk kt korg2 sbb i have to cancel and cant join ur trip.

Buat masa nih, im tired, hopeless...tgh mencari sesuatu utk menaikkan kembali semangat pada diri sendiri. I just want to lead my life the best that i can, despite everything happened and on going recently and for the future of course!!

Need to start planning for my life starting tom. Draft da ade dlm kepala, tggl tulis je kt board kt bilik nih.

Moga hari esok lebih baik daripada hari ini. Akanku usahakan ke arah itu!!

InsyaAllah

[sambil nyanyikan lagu InsyaAllah-Maher Zain utk diri sendiri]

ctnaquia esir

08122009